snap back to reality

life contnues, people grow and change, new relationships form and old ones fade. basically the world keeps spinning even while you are away. its a bit of a harsh reality in a strange way. i would have loved my life to stay in a torpor and waited for me to come back, and on the surface it has, i have steppend into my old jobs, im living back at home, my family is here, my friends are here, my car is here, my things are here, but its all different somehow, im different. Canada was a positive experience on the whole, i needed to go and i needed the change to happen but i just wasn’t ready for it, i wasn’t ready for how it was going to change me and my views on life. its strange that being single and back in Australia feels so lonely, i thought that being in a long distance relationship was as lonely as i could possibly feel, but alas. don’t get me wrong, its great being back in Aus, its just very strange, i feel somewhat hexagonal in a round hole, almost fitting, but not quite.